A Survivors Story

So here I am half way between life and death and what have I found? Some form of existence, fighting to live but yet no life to live for. My desires would take me far away with no means of support yet my support keeps me far away from my desires so what do I do. All my vices are gone and I can't even eat. What type of life is this? I still don't know if the cancer is gone and I could be fighting a losing battle. I am all used up inside, no drive, no direction, no desire, no strength. I am so tired of being sick and tired and not having any choices. I am not sure how much longer I can go on, I need hope, a dream, something to strive for besides waking up. I have traveled so many different roads in my life but this one is no fun. Something needs to change I am just depressed all the time. I need to get away and find myself again. If only it was that easy, but maybe it is. A new thought, a new idea, a new direction. The greatest thing about being alive is having a choice. I guess the choice is easy, get busy living or get busy dying. As long as I have a choice I will choose to make anew what once was old and strive forward to greet each new day with the enthusiasm it so richly deserves. One thing I am sure of; it is not the destination which is important for it is all about the journey. May God bless you on yours as he has so richly blessed mine.